Sadness and Excitement…

It has been a long time since I have blogged. I hope to write more in the coming months. It has been almost a year since I have published on my site and a lot has happened.

If you have read my past blogs, a year ago I had a friend who had a heart attack and then suffered kidney failure. On top of that, she had Ankolysing Spondolytis. And I probably spelled that wrong… She has gone through dialysis at least three days a week for almost a year now. She is my best friend. Her health has been failing and she has finally decided that she has had enough and it is time. She went through her last dialysis treatment two days ago and her husband checked her out of the hospital and she is now on hospice at home to help with the pain. She might have a few days left. But she is already gone in her mind. She has done everything she is supposed to do on this Earth and she told me it is time. So, it is just a matter of time. I just feel like my world will never be the same. Because it won’t be.

My dad entered a nursing home due to his Parkinson’s Disease. My mom has never lived alone. She lives in the same apartment complex as I do, and if she had her way she would have me over every evening. Well, I would love to stay sane. So she is slowly getting used to spending time on her own. It is sad. Too many sad things.

A little bit of excitement. I applied for a Caregiver Grant through and was granted a trip to the Grand Canyon. All I have to do is pay a $100 deposit and the airfare. I am all signed up, my older brother contributed the $100 deposit (he just happened to be visiting from Virginia when I received the acceptance letter) and my younger sister is going to donate airline points to pay my airfare. I don’t get to travel much at all, so this is super exciting. I am really blessed.

What is really neat is that it normally takes 4-6 weeks to hear after you send in the application. My friend really pushed me to send it in. I had to write a personal statement and I really struggled with it. I did not think I would hear before she passed away. I heard within about 2 weeks. I was able to tell her that I am going to the Grand Canyon.